Last Post of 2009

I went into 2009 looking at things one way and am coming out looking at things somewhat the same but a little differently. Empty nest has been a horrible thing for me. I do not and will never even pretend to like it. There although were a few moments this year when I was thankful for it. Even found myself happy that I did not have to "be" somewhere at a time. Found that I was grateful to just do what I wanted. So why does guilt come with that? A feeling that must be lost in 2010. Health, always an issue, never ends, but what will be will be. I want to do so much more, more what? I know, but am not attempting to do anything else right now. I will continue to have faith, to pray for my family and myself. Goodbye 2009.

Unknown Health Situation

Yesterday I felt crappy, I was also fed up. So I guess being fed up made me feel crappier. Last night was long, very long. Belly discomfort, tired, just really wiped out. So I made the final decision, go to bed early and your staying home tomorrow. So I did. I slept thru to morning, let Jersey out and went back to sleep until 11am. This afternoon I got the shakes, that kinda shook me up. I even took a late nap and truthfully want to go lay down again. It has been awhile since the last treatment. Next one is December 28th. I know that has a lot to do with how I feel. It scares me a bit. What will the numbers be after this 6 month trial between treatments? I'll know soon. I may know already with how I feel.